When someone betrays your trust how do you forgive them? I mean honestly… you work so hard to create a bond with someone that once it’s broken can you honestly go back? I feel like a part of me can forgive and then this growing gnawing pain sets in and I feel like I can’t breathe anymore. It’s so strange to know that HE betrayed my trust and I am the one sitting here blaming myself even though as I do blame myself I know it wasn’t/isn’t me. Some people are just the way they are… It doesn’t make the hole in my heart go away and it doesn’t take away the feeling of being donkey kicked in the stomach… I try so hard. I know I am my own worst enemy right now though. I keep blaming myself… Maybe if I was prettier, nicer, quieter, maybe if I changed something this wouldn’t be happening to me. It’s like even my worst enemy couldn’t hurt me right now because I’m doing it all by myself. How pathetic of me. I want to forgive him, but I honestly don’t know how to right now. I don’t even know how to trust him anymore. I know a lot of people can relate to that… You look at the person you love so much and couldn’t imagine life without them, but you keep looking at them and now you get conflicted because you don’t know how to be with them anymore either… It’s a constant battle. You sit there and ask yourself if the trust can ever come back or will you always look at this person with doubt and sadness… I don’t know. Guess I’ll find out.